<html><head><meta http-equiv="content-type" content="text/html; charset=utf-8"></head><body dir="auto"><div><div><b>“My Apology To Me”</b> by Natasha Underwood</div><div><br></div><div>This is to the guy that I went out of my way to get noticed by,</div><div>The one I trusted, the one who told me lies,</div><div>The one who made me feel like I was the only one,</div><div>The one who was through with me when the sex was done,</div><div>The one who made me feel like I was impossible to love,</div><div>The one who called me over when he just wanted to bust,</div><div>The one who made it clear I'm not the girl he wanted me to be.</div><div>I tried and I failed, so this is my apology.</div><div><br></div><div>This is to the one who gave me life, the one who gave me birth,</div><div>The one who complains and looks at me like I'm the worst thing on the earth,</div><div>The one who emotionally beats me down, </div><div>The one who's supposed to lift me up from the ground,</div><div>The one who's supposed to bring to my face nothing but smiles and laughs,</div><div>The one who brings everything that is the opposite of that,</div><div>The one who constantly compares me to others, </div><div>The one who makes it so difficult to love her,</div><div>The one who says I'm not the daughter she expected me to be.</div><div>I understand that, and this is my apology</div><div><br></div><div>This is to the sick man who crept into my room,</div><div>The one who gave me those thoughts of ending it soon.</div><div>The one who lied and said I was crazy in the head,</div><div>The one who had denied creeping into my bed,</div><div>The one who left me scarred for life,</div><div>The one who is responsible for my silent cries at night,</div><div>The one who says I've changed his life</div><div>'Cause I've caused problems between him and his wife,</div><div>The one who said I should have kept quiet, I should have just let things be.</div><div>He's right, nothing positive came from it, so this is my apology.</div><div><br></div><div>This is to my friends who say I do nothing but complain,</div><div>The ones who left because they say I've changed,</div><div>The ones who didn't stick around in my time of need,</div><div>The ones who gave me more of a reason to grieve.</div><div>I understand I'm not that girl I used to be,</div><div>And for that, this is my apology.</div><div><br></div><div>This is to the girl with the low self-esteem,</div><div>The girl who cries so terribly,</div><div>The one with the forced and fake smile,</div><div>The one who hasn't been happy for a while,</div><div>The one who's afraid to trust any man,</div><div>The one who's afraid to let anyone in, </div><div>The one who's passed up many chances at love</div><div>Because she finds people hard to trust,</div><div>The one that was robbed of her purity and self-esteem.</div><div>This is to the girl I'm embarrassed to be.</div><div>This is my apology to me.</div></div><div><br></div><div>---------------------------------<br><br><div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Seeya 'round town, Moscow, because . . .</span></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><br></span></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">"Moscow Cares" (the most fun you can have with your pants on)</span></div><div><a href="http://www.moscowcares.com/" style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"><font color="#000000">http://www.MoscowCares.com</font></a></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);"> </span></div><div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Tom Hansen</span></div><div><span style="background-color: rgba(255, 255, 255, 0);">Moscow, Idaho</span></div></div><div><br></div></div></div></body></html>